Thursday, July 16, 2015

I'm a Believer

Current Weight: 310 lbs
Total Loss: 39 lbs
Avg. Loss/Week: 2.78 lbs
- Body Weight %age: 11%

"What made you decide to do this?" is overwhelmingly the most common question I've been asked since starting down the path of weight loss.

The long answer is that a million moments in the history of Meg led me here: unsuccessful back-to-school clothes shopping trips with my Mom ending in tears (and ice cream to console), the ever upward line graph of the doctor's weight chart on me, the lethargy that beckoned me to the couch every day after work.

The short answer? I had to see if I could.

In late 2013 we lost Mom and I comfort ate my way to a prolific 33-pound gain on top of an already morbidly obese frame. A year later I commenced therapy to work through my grief. Once this was under control, my therapist and I discussed what other mischief could be managed. Something that could contribute to my and my loved ones' happiness; all roads led to weight loss. Wanna start a family? Do your part to avoid hereditary diseases? Do more stuff with your husband? Have more energy and feel better? Weight loss.

But it took Jordan to find and get me to Physician's Weight Loss Center (PWLC). Both at our heaviest ever, he took the initiative and made the appointment for us. As we sat there listening to the details of the plan I presented a cool facade while hot shame washed over me and the urge to cry crowded my throat. I despaired, "This time isn't going to be any different" then silence in the room snapped me to attention. "I'm sorry, what?" The nurse repeated herself "I asked you two if you believe you can do this." I nodded my affirmation that felt like a lie.

Now, at 39 pounds down, I'm burgeoning believer. And in case I forget, Jordan, unprompted and
at the most unexpected times, pulls me into a hug and kisses my forehead and reminds me "you can do this." And with Jordan down 40 pounds himself, I couldn't be more proud of you, My Love.

Jordan's 40-lb Reward: Oakley Sunglasses (and he looks fiiiiiine in them!)

Yep, mine. Purrrrrrrrrr.
Uh...also mine. Sigh.

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